Identity Revisited: Discovery

***I originally wrote this last year to be posted in a blog I write with three other Christian Women (pro31womenscompendium.com). I never submitted the post because I felt it was incomplete. Now it is complete. The original title was Identity.  However, I changed the title because I had to add some thoughts recently revealed. 

From the womb to the tomb and sometimes beyond that, we are given what I will call identifiers.  These identifiers are labels, names, terms, blessings and curses that become associated and connected to us as individuals.  For example:

birth

boy or girl

black or white

long or short

skinny or fat

cute or ugly

peaceful or ornery

And that short list can happen within 24 hours of your birth! So what happens when we have years of this mess just piled up on our subconscious, our spirit. 

Recently, (at the original writing) during a prayer meeting, I heard the Holy Spirit say “you don’t see yourself as God sees you…” Selah.  There is no argument there.  As believers we are to find our identity in Christ Jesus.   The book of Ephesians is full of “in Him” scriptures that testify to the spiritual reality of believers functioning as Christ’s Body in the earth.  Again, there is no argument there.  However, what if the Holy Spirit was really referencing not just spiritual origin, but original intent or maybe better said as original design. 

Our lives are full of concepts that are so far from the original intent of the Father; remember we are living in a fallen world in need of restoration & redemption. Honestly, for some of us, by the time we are awakened to the gift of salvation, we have been through so much of life that salvation is literally a new birth.  It is not only a birthing of our spirit but I want to suggest it is a new birth of our soul as well.  Our spirit becomes alive to God and yet our mind, emotions and will have to be transformed.  This is the part of salvation and redemption that can get folks sitting on opposite sides of a fence.  Once we receive our gift of salvation, I earnestly believe we begin this journey of discovering who Father created us to be…and this identity goes beyond simply our function as part of the body of Christ.  This identity goes all the way back to the very breath of God…the original design and intent of the Creator.

Job 33: 4

            “ The Spirit of God has made me, and the breath of the Almighty gives me life.”

In our culture so much of our identity is wrapped up in the accumulation of these identifiers.  The list just grows and grows.  Add-ons come from our education, our career, our community affiliation, our social status, our ethnicity …even our computer usernames!  If I have to create another personal ID…seriously!  Really what does it all mean?  In my humble opinion, it means that we are so easily distracted by what is truly unimportant that there is a lack of sensitivity and discernment to see what truly is important.  At the end of the day, we are created beings of a benevolent Creator.  Father is the Creator and we are the created. He knows far more about who we are then we do or any given day.  We must discover who it is that He created us to be.  That is not an easy task.  It is full of falsehood and deceptions planted by an enemy of our soul.  Only through the power of the Spirit of God and a seed of faith do we stumble into the truth that can set our soul free.  It is called a faith walk. A walk is a simple step at a time.

At the original time of this writing, I was struggling with who I believed God had “called” me to be. 

(Side bar- revelation: I am not a calling, I am a creation) Reflecting back, I can now see how the Father was working out the things in my soul that where not in alignment with who He had “created” me to be.  Several years ago the Father revealed that I was His Beloved.  I thought WOW, I need to Be-Loved.  Then later He revealed that I was His daughter. Again WOW, I needed to be Fathered.  Throughout this journey, I have realized that it has been a process of Him awakening me to the essence of who I am in HIM.  It has been a removing of layers of false identities found in my achievements, careers and life roles.  None of those false identities were even close to what He has wanted to reveal in me.  I received who He called me to be as His Beloved. I am continuing to walk in what it means to be-loved unconditionally. Love is eternal, therefore this revelation is never-ending.  I recently discovered why He revealed that I was His daughter.  As his daughter, He was fathering my soul.  He was healing the wounded areas of my heart. Wounds not simply from the lack of a father role in my life, but a much broader healing that encompassed any wound that was keeping me bound and captive.  

Recently, I heard a favorite minister of mine reveal that our soul is characteristically feminine but our spirit is characteristically masculine.  I won’t even try to explain. I pray you catch it in the Spirit. However, if you look into scripture you will see a slight delineation.  Adam was created with Eve inside of Him. She was taken out of him.  That means there was a part of Adam that was characteristically feminine. It’s deep, I know,  but I kept meditating on this.  After a few days, I sensed the Spirit wanting to open up my understanding to the process the Father was working IN me. 

In a moments of reflection, I saw all the different identities I had attached myself to in order to find acceptance, love and validation. (No need to list them. I hope you are getting the picture.) All to no avail.  It wasn’t until the Father started to reveal to me His thoughts that I began to unmask and walk away from the falsehoods.  Finally, I have come to realize that as the daughter of God, He fathers my soul to keep it free of bondage, but the time has come for me to walk in my sonship. What kind of son? A son of the Spirit. 

Romans 8:14

For as many as are lead by the Spirit of God they are the sons of God.

John 1:12

But to as many as received Him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name.

I am a Daughter of God and a Son of the Spirit. IDENTITY DISCOVERED!!!

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